I received "The Happiness Project" by Gretchen Rubin for Christmas and I devoured it in about a week, reading and contemplating almost every single word of the book. Typically I don't read what I deem as "self-help" books. I judge them to be too cliche and not specific for me and where I am in my life. But because this was a gift, I figure I'd give it a shot and I'm really glad I did.
The author spent one whole year trying to figure out what made her happy and how to be more happy. Throughout the book, she talks about what she did and how it helped her, while also using research and studies to back up her findings. She did small things like lighting candles in her office to big things like making an effort not to nag her husband.
I really enjoyed this book. It was written in such a conversational tone that I felt like Gretchen and I were sitting in a coffee shop discussing what makes each of us happy. And a lot of her arguments made sense. She never said "do this and you'll immediately be happy." She pointed out how sometimes the changes she made increased her happiness but also how, occasionally, they just didn't.
This book made me think about what makes me happy in my life and since it's the beginning of a brand new year, I decided to transfer these concepts that Gretchen brought up in her book to my loose resolutions.
1. Be Anica. One of Gretchen's personal commandments is to be herself and to realize that sometimes you just don't like things even if you want to like them. I might like the idea of getting all fancied up to go out on the town, but in reality, I know that I really just want to curl up in my sweats and read a book. And I should be ok with that because, well, that's...me.
2. Write and read more. Plain and simple. Those are the things that bring me happiness. Why not do them more often?
3. Do it if it takes less than a minute. Put away that pair of earrings as soon as I take them off instead of letting them pile up on the bathroom counter. Wash the dishes right away instead of letting them accumulate in the sink - they probably take less time to scrub than you think.
4. Embrace the special and the mundane. Basically, be in the moments. In each moment.
5. Don't nag. Whether that's at home or at work, be cognizant of the fact that I live mainly in a world of adults who can do things on their own. While I might tell my boyfriend to not forget his coat more than once and I feel like I'm just looking out for him, he's a grown man who can chose to grab his jacket or not.
6. Spend more time with friends. This one always seems to be on my list but I am going to try to really make an effort to hang out more. I might be reluctant to go at first, but it's totally worth it once I'm in those love-filled moments with friends.
Friday, January 11, 2013
Be Anica
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Finding the Balance
Life is all about getting to the sweet spot between careening out of control and sitting still.
Lately, I've felt both the insane feeling of having your hands off the wheel and the quiet solitude that can sometimes drive you crazy.
On one hand, my boyfriend and I have been taking a lot of fun trips here and there and have a lot of weekend plans for USC football -- these things keep us busy and going, going, going. We get to people-watch, dine at hole-in-the-wall places and stroll hand in hand down the windy streets of San Francisco. It's perfect. And perfectly draining.
On the other hand, when I am home, I've been doing a lot of reading. I'm deep in Tolstoy's Anna Karenina, which requires concentration and a tenacity for keeping names straight. When I'm not reading that on my iPad, I'm trying to keep up on all of the latest long reads that get mentioned by people on the Internet. And then there are the regular blogs to keep up with. (On an aside - it can get overwhelming to think that that there are millions upon billions of words on the Internet, and while many of them are superb and yearn for readers, I will most likely not get to a large fraction of them.)
Which brings me to the third hand (third hand?). I haven't been doing the thing that I believe hits that sweet spot - writing. For me, since I am mostly a non-fiction writer, this requires me to step out and away from my normal life and experience ... things. But it also must be done in a quiet, singular place. What's unfortunate is that I haven't willed myself into that sweet spot lately (if at all in the past few months). I'm either careening or sitting still. I'm either busy or not busy. I'm never writing.
Maybe I'm not meant to write. Maybe I'm meant to be a professional reader (no, but seriously, do those exist?). Maybe instead of creating more words that go into the ether of the Internet, I should try to figure out how to give more attention to the words that are already out there (and get paid for it).
Or maybe...just maybe...I need to write. To will myself to write. To do it. To make myself find the balance and not wait for the balance to find me.
Thursday, August 2, 2012
Today's Letters
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Well, Hello Again
Sometimes, you just have to take a break from it all. Unplug. Recharge. Feel the grass between your toes before you can jump right back into the crazy.
Apparently that's what I've been doing lately. But I think I'm getting back into the groove again. I have a new roommate (hey, Lauren!), a handsome man by my side and a dog who loves to give kisses. I am setting goals for myself and trying to stay away from the T.V. as much as possible (The Bachelorette aside, of course). Here's the plan:
- Read during dinner instead of watching mindless crap.
- Jump on Rosetta Stone to learn Spanish at least 30 minutes every day.
- Exercise at least five days a week (did I mention that my sister and I are registered for the Tinker Bell Half Marathon in January?!). Back in the saddle again.
- Write more, whether that's here on the blog, in my journal (encouraged by this couple) or for other outlets.
- Get back into Twitter. It was inevitable ... no one can quit Twitter.
- Listen more.
- Be understanding and positive.
Monday, November 21, 2011
Big Confidence Boost
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Things have been a little crazy lately...spending time with the boy...visiting friends...dog sitting (walking three dogs at a time can be complicated)...staying out of the rain...learning...getting ready for Thanksgiving...Christmas-gift shopping...
But you know what happened on Sunday? I went for an 8 mile run and I felt A-to-the-MAZING! That was the longest run I've done in a really, really long time. I got caught in a short downpour that made things interesting, but overall, my body was diggin' the run and working smoothly. My overall time was good and I can't wait to hook my Garmin watch up to the computer to see my splits.
This was a huge confidence boost for me in my hopes to do a half marathon in mid-January. I think in the next few days I am going to put together a more concrete training schedule so I make sure to build up to 10, 11 or even 12 miles before the race.
Knowing that all of the major holidays are in between now and the half-marathon is a little daunting. But when I worry or am unsure, I am going to think back to Sunday's run. Because there's almost nothing better than knowing you knocked out 8 miles (and felt strong doing it) before most people had their first cup of coffee!
Monday, November 14, 2011
I Like You Too Much
I talk a lot about love on this blog. Love for running. Love for Austin. Love for the boy that makes my heart smile. And it's true. I believe 100% in the power of love.
What I've found out in the last few weeks, though, is that love doesn't have to be shouted from rooftops or made into large, grand gestures.
Love is ... reading side by side, knowing that the silence between the two of us is comfortable and warm. When I think about my future, this is exactly what I see. I hope to be reading next to this boy for the rest of my life. We've got a ton of books to get through.
Love is ... doing laundry together and laughing when one of my shirts ends up in his basket.
Love is ... splitting a dinner instead of ordering two.
Love is ... letting him park in my garage parking spot so he doesn't have to hunt around for an open space on the street.
Love is ... sending interesting articles to one another in the middle of the day because while you are reading said article, your mind immediately thinks of him.
Love is ... thinking about him all day.
Love is ... adding in some yummy toffee to his bag of leftover food for him to take home. It's a sweet surprise!
Love is ... seeing the pup perk up when he hears the boy's car lock sound. Yes, Austin knows exactly which beep comes from his favorite wrestling buddy's car.
Love is ... watching my two boys wrestle.
Love is ... saying 'I'm sorry for being a jerk' and then sealing that forgiveness with a kiss.
Love is ... him hi-fiving me when I say I ran three times last week.
Love is ... wanting to spend every waking minute with him and cherishing the ones that you actually do get to spend together.
I know, I know. It's all super sappy. But I feel like we are at a point in our relationship where everything is special with him. I'm still wearing my love-tinted glasses. To be honest, I hope I never have to take them off.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Come Live in My Heart
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While in a meeting, my boss posed the question, what's most important to you and why? He said it was a hard question and that the answer shouldn't come right away - it was one of those prompts that require brewing (or is it stewing?).
I found this to be a ridiculously easy question and my answer came soon after I started thinking about it.
Love is what is most important, after all. And don't fall into the trap of thinking that "love" means what happens between two adult people who want to spend their whole lives together. That's only part of it. Think of how each of those balloons makes up your heart - there are so many opportunities to show your true love and grow your heart.
“Come live in my heart, and pay no rent.”
--Samuel Lover
Thursday, October 13, 2011
One Day at a Time
"The only way to live happily ever after is to do it one day at a time."
-- Unknown
As of tomorrow, I will have lived 9,125 days here on this earth.
Over 9,000 days.
That's a whole ton of sunrises and sunsets, of breakfasts and lunches, of ice cream cones and barefoot miles.
That's more tears than I can count, more hugs that have warmed my body and kisses that have made my soul soar.
In that amount of time, I have lived in four different states six different times (seems like I can't get away from the southwest). I have cycled countless miles along the beach and up in the mountains. My face has gotten sunburned and windburned and eaten by mosquitoes (don't ask).
Looking back over more than 9,000 days is mind boggling. So much has happened in those days. So much has changed, whether it is my hair style, my shoe size or the boy who is holding my hand. And yet, so much has stayed the course. My parents have loved me every single day, regardless of what I did in the 24 hours before or the 24 hours after. I know that just like the sun will come up, they will love me. That is a gift that not everyone can say they have.
I met my favorite person around day 824. Even today, at the 9,124th day, and again in another 9,000 days, she will be the bestest sister a girl could ever wish for, or even have the gall to ask for.

Around day 8,245, I was a graduate for the third time in my life. Wait, do I count kindergarten and 8th grade graduation in that? Hmmmm...probably not. Three times I have gotten up on a stage when my name was read, reveling in the feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction, finality and beginnings, while also being scared out of my ever-loving mind. I have become an educated woman who is constantly wondering, asking and learning. I don't know exactly when babies become curious beings, but I am still as curious now as I was that day.
I lost my grandpa around the 6,390th day. That was one of a handful of truly, deeply, heart-wrenchingly sad days of my time here. I have been blessed to have lived, so far, an extremely happy life, one that hasn't been hidden under rain clouds or despair.
Between days 8,925 and today, I fell in love and have given my heart, fully, to another human being. Hopefully there are more days that feel like these in my future.

I became responsible for a life somewhere in the 8,000's. Every day has been a learning experience: Dogs like to chew carpet. Dogs like to pee on carpet. Carpet starts to smell after being peed on too many times. Dogs like to lick you. Dogs eat a lot of food. Dogs need a ton of exercise. Dogs are truly wo(man)'s best friend.
People always say, "Man, am I old," in reference to themselves. And in some cases, it's justified...if you're 89 years old and have lived a full life. But don't tell me that at the age of 28 or 34, you can truly call yourself old. Sure, you might be 10,220 days into life, or even 12,410 days. But what is that compared to 32,485 days.
32,485 days. 89 years.
That's what I'm striving for (and more). I want each and every one of those days to combine together to make a happily ever after. I'm already a third of the way there, and think of all I have experienced up 'til now.
Here's to tomorrow...and the next day...and the next...
Thursday, October 6, 2011
My ID
I had seen the ads for Road ID in the Runner's World magazines that my dad would send me once he was done reading them (recycle, people). I was intrigued.
For those of you who aren't in the know, Road ID is a bracelet that has some identifying info on it in the horrible case that you can't speak for yourself (see: being hit by a car). You can put whatever you want on it - your birth date, contact info for next of kin, any allergies you may have, etc.
My gears started turning (the ones in my head) and I realized that no one would know who I was if I was lying on the side of the road unconscious. Sure, Austin's tags say who I am, but what good would that be if A). he ran away when I got hit or 2). they called the number on his tag (my cell phone)...duh, I wouldn't answer cuz I'm lying on the side of the road!
So, I went ahead and bought a bracelet, thinking of my future unborn children who would need someone to birth them.
I have to say, I was a little skeptical about the size when I first got it - it looked like it could barely fit over Austin's paw. And yes, it does require a little finagling when I put it on. But, it fits securely when it's on and I barely feel it. I make sure to always put it on when I take Austin out for a walk or when I go for a run or ride.
When I was on the Road ID website and it prompted me to put in the information I wanted on the bracelet, my mind started wandering. How do I identify myself? In no particular order, this is what I came up with:
- I'm a woman. Everything I am stems from the fact that my sex has been told no you can't, when really, anything you can do I can do better.
- I'm half Hispanic, a quarter Swiss and a quarter Chinese. Each part of my background helps to shape how I view the world.
- I'm a romantic. I can't say hopeless anymore, because I've found my prince charming.
- I'm educated and believe that each and every child here in the United States, however they arrived, deserves an education. Each of us should be given the basic tools that can help us become better people.
- I'm a Colorado girl in the deepest part of my soul. There is almost nothing more perfect than the golden aspens in the fall. Well, that and a good New Belgium brew with friends. That's pretty perfect, too.
- I'm definitely a dog person. Cat's make me sneeze. And puppies are God's gift to man, so how can you argue with that?
- I believe that family is the most important thing in any person's life and that with a strong, loving, forgiving family, a person can be content in whatever they do. I am in my family and my family is in me.
- I'm a voracious reader. If it has words, I'm gonna read it. Except maybe the creepy classified ads. I don't read those.
- I really, really, really want to be a writer. I don't know if that will happen now, or later, or if ever, but I am going to strive to be a good wordsmith.
- I'm a really good eater. I'm not afraid of food, so I'll probably eat whatever you put down in front of me. My aunt used to say, "I'd rather clothe her than feed her," in reference to a time in my life when I could eat a foot-long Subway sandwhich by myself. When I was 13.
- I know that we should all be proud of our bodies (and most of the time I am), but there are certain glances in the mirror that make me want to do a few more sit-ups and run a few minutes longer.
- I'm a lover.
- I'm not ashamed to say I own a library card. And use it.
- I'm a homebody who is happy in her normal routines.
- I'm a runner who happens to run barefoot. Ok, ok...in Vibrams.
- I'm a worrier. If I care about you, it's inevitable that I'll toss up a prayer about you every now and again.
- I'm a sister to an incredibly smart, funny, gorgeous woman who the world is open to...she just needs to figure out exactly how to conquer it.
- Sometimes, I overcompensate and try to sound more knowledgeable or cultured than I am.
- I have been told that I have no taste in movies and that I've missed all of the "good" ones. But I am also one who won't watch a stupid movie even if everyone else is watching it. So there.
- Yes, I need validation that I am smart, beautiful, talented, fast, etc. Maybe that's why I check Facebook several times a day - just to see if people have commented on my posts or photos.
Too bad all of this couldn't fit on my ID bracelet - those EMT's wouldn't know what hit them!
Monday, October 3, 2011
Delicious Autumn!
For some reason, Norah Jones makes me think of the fall season. Maybe it's the warm, gravely quality of her voice that makes me want to curl up in a blanket with a cup of hot tea and a good book. Although not from this song, the lyrics from "Thinking About You" are perfect for this post.
"Yesterday I saw the sun shinin',
And the leaves were fallin' down softly,
My cold hands needed a warm, warm touch,
And I was thinkin' about you."
Now that October is upon us, it's officially fall, my favorite season. But, because I live in southern California, fall is not the real fall I've grown to love.
Instead of the leaves turning a gorgeous golden color, all we get is a little bit of a chill in the morning air.
Ok, that's not the temperature at my house by the beach, but that was the temperature inland this weekend. 97 degrees in October! That's pure madness.
Fall means:
1. Apple cider
2. Candy corn
3. Running in long sleeves and tights if it gets cold enough
4. Throw blankets
5. Scarves
6. Comfy sweatshirts
7. Cute boots
8. It's almost Thanksgiving...
9. It's almost Christmas...
10. That means I get to go home. :)
Happy autumn!
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Running is Perfect
"A true runner is a very fortunate person. He has found something in him that is just perfect."
-George Sheehan
And then there's this guy. Yeah, he's a good runner, but I love it when he cuddles with me. Sure, go ahead, buddy...melt my heart...see if I care!
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Holding His Hand
There are just some things that cut straight to your heart. You see engagement pictures on Facebook, all gorgeously fuzzy with love and happiness and warmth, and you yearn for what the two people have, that comforting feeling of comfortableness with each other. You hear a song that proclaims true love and while driving home, all you can think of is the magic that abounds in your heart when someone is holding your hand. Strange how a touch three feet from it can rock your core so forcefully.
Do I see more engagement pictures and have a stronger visceral reaction to them when I'm single? Or when I'm dating someone? Does that wedding video make me tear up because I wish that will happen to me sometime...someday...or because I can actually see myself in that same position?
I used to write in my journal that it was definitely the former - "I want the knowledge that you can reach over to that person, hold their hand and know that everything will be ok." I waxed and waned poetic nonsense and felt sorry for myself - timing was never on my side and I had come to the conclusion that relationships were always doomed to fail because one of us was always going to be leaving, moving, graduating, etc. I can't start to tell you how many pages in my journal are devoted to questioning the guys in my life and the relationships that I might never have.
Slowly, though, my journal entries have changed to the latter - "We were truly in a little love bubble and it felt like my heart was complete." (We were sitting in a Starbucks and immediately, my mind picked this song to be part of my life's soundtrack).
It's crazy how suddenly, your hand feels better in the hand of someone else than it does hanging listlessly, alone, by your side, something it had been doing for your whole life. Your heart jumps in irregular beats when that person laughs over the phone - is it possible that Zuzu Bailey from "It's A Wonderful Life" was wrong when saying "every time a bell rings, an angel gets his wings" and it's really when someone you love laughs? Angels would be getting wings right and left in my case...that boy laughs all the time.
Separately, the heart and the mind are incredible organs. The heart (hopefully) learns that sitting down with the someone at lunch who might otherwise eat a PB&J by herself is good for both involved. It understands that exercise makes the muscle stronger and the "heart" lighter and happier. The brain recognizes symbols and speech and pairs them together to make "Where the Red Fern Grows" and "Come Away With Me".
But together, they can gang up on a person. They can make you believe that wonderful, fuzzy feelings and dreams are easily accessible when you hold that someone's hand. That truly and indescribably, everything and anything is possible when you hear that laugh. And abruptly, the look that all engagement pictures have is how your life looks through your eyes...the love, warmth and happiness are now radiating off of you and not off of the picture that you yearn for. You now have what you have always yearned for. I now have what I have always yearned for.
Monday, September 19, 2011
If Heaven Wasn't so Far Away
As I was driving home the other day, I heard this song on the radio and it made me think of my grandpa.
My grandpa, Jose Vigil, was never able to see any of his granddaughters graduate from high school, much less college. He won't get to watch any of us get married or have babies. He was barely a tangible presence in my younger cousin's life, as he died when she was still young; she has a few memories of him, but not too many. My sister and I were lucky enough to have a solid childhood of experiences with him.
- Going to the shed to get the air compressor to pump up the old, worn-out-to-the-point-where-the-leather-was-smooth basketball.
- Drinking from the outside water spigot.
- Going tubing down the small stream on their property. We'd enter the property, hop into the bed of the truck (the only place we could ride in the bed), and drive up to the stream. There, we'd cruise down the stream for a bit, but usually it was too cold to stay in too long. Once it was lunchtime, my grandma would feed us Vienna Sausages & potted meat on saltine crackers. We'd drink it down with the barrel juice drinks (you know the kind). Those were sweet, sweet times when life was wrapped up in that one afternoon. Nothing could get better than that.
- Riding horses.
- Playing in the hay loft (which was usually cut short by my sneezes and runny noses...dang allergies).
- Watching baseball on TV with the sound off (the announcers never said anything worth anything).
- Making carne seca (beef jerky)...a little bit of salt, a little bit of pepper.
We all miss you so much down here. The family is not the same without you and while we somehow figured out how to on in your absence, there is definitely a big void. I was lucky enough to grow up with you in my life. I worry that Nieves' memories of you are brief & fuzzy - I wish she could have known & loved you like Pilar, Sierra & I did.Gramita is doing ok. Things are getting harder for her - maintaining the house and land, taking care of the animals, worrying about all of us ... please help her to stay strong and not give up. Because without her ... I don't know what this family would do.I think that you would be proud of the people your granddaughters have grown up to be. Pilar is so bright and talented and with focus, could do so many things. Sierra is a very smart girl who finds interest in new, surprising things. She has huge potential now as she graduates from high school - I hope that she sees her potential as we do. And then there's Nieves, who is probably the most caring, sensitive, loving child I know. She is the definition of sweetness and I can't wait to see who she grows up to be.
Grumpy, I hope you are proud of me. I've stumbled sometimes and I have tried my hardest to be a good person. Please continue to watch over me and guide me to do what is right.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Don't Hate on Disney
So I'm mandating (that's right, mandating) that today is Tuesday tunes because I didn't post yesterday.
Growing up, we listened to a lot of Disney soundtracks because we were obsessed with Disney movies. And when I say a lot, I mean we had every main Disney song memorized. This was a favorite:
Sigh.
How come dates in real life can't be like this?
Since me and my sister are two girls (clearly), we always fought over who got to sing the Jasmine part. Same thing happened when we would sing songs from my sister's favorite movie, Grease. I guess we learned how to trade off...or maybe she bullied me into singing one part or the other.
And then of course, there was this one:
My sister's favorite Disney was Beauty and the Beast. And how could all little girls not want to be Belle? She was brunette, gorgeous and loved books.
Although I remember the lyrics of the songs, what I remember most about these songs is spending time with my little sister. We'd sit on the old red blanket and pretend we were soaring over Agrabah. She'd collect Beauty and the Beast toys, while I'd try and get all of the 101 Dalmatians. We'd march and pretend to fight when "I'll Make a Man Out of You" (from Mulan) came on. We'd watch the movies over and over again...those are some lines I might be able to recite. We lived, eat, breathed Disney movies. They were our childhood.
Many people say that Disney movies give children an unrealistic view of the world. Sure, every girl ended up with the guy, even if she tried her darndest not to fall in love. And yes, loose strings were tied up and happy endings were a must. But really, a movie is a movie. And unless that is all you are exposed to as a child, I do not believe that any harm will come out of watching them. It is a parent's duty to show you other things and to tell you that not everyone looks like you but that's what real life is about.
Disney movies are just that...movies. Enjoy them and sing along with them. I know I certainly will belt them out any chance I can get.
Monday, August 15, 2011
When You're Happy Like a Fool...
Have you ever come across a song that embodies how you are feeling at the exact moment you hear it? It seems to say what is going through your head in a perfectly succinct way that only songs can do.
I listened to OneRepublic's new song "Good Life" on repeat this weekend. Every time I listened to it, I couldn't believe how it made me smile and gave me this warm, gooey feeling inside. Let me allow you the pleasure of listening to it (and really listen to it...don't just watch the video):
My life is super good right now. Have you ever been at that place where your heart is full and your mind is happy? Here's why I feel the way I do:
- Austin. He's a cute puppy who is always up to something. He makes me smile on a daily basis and when he comes to curl up at my feet, the world feels right. I'm pretty sure God gave us dogs to remind us that life really is simple...they love unconditionally, and I believe that's the true meaning of it all.
- Being able to run when I want, how I want and not let my body dictate (ie. stop me from doing something I love). The freedom of just going out into the world is exhilarating. Our bodies are magical specimens that we shouldn't take for granted.
- I've recently had the time and motivation to start reading again! And let me tell you...a good book sure does my soul well. There's nothing quite like getting lost in the great words of brilliant wordsmiths.
- My boyfriend, Dave, makes me laugh every single day. It doesn't matter whether it's through a text, on the phone or in person, not a day goes by when I don't laugh until it hurts with him (or at him, sometimes). His mantra to life (live like you were dying) encourages me to wake up a little bit earlier, enjoy each moment a little bit more and don't stress the small stuff.
- A job can be a job, or a job can be something you put your energy into and enjoy. Mine falls into the latter category. I don't ever dread coming to work. I usually look forward to it (come on, now, I get the Monday blues just like everyone else). My position allows me to work freely on projects I'm interested in, while helping others in departments that I'm not in, further broadening my work "education." It's creative work that keeps the mind young, and fortunately for me, I do a lot of it.
- Simply Limeade. A drink that makes my tastebuds jump (literally) for joy. It's not very sweet like other limeades; this one has the tartness that a natural lime has. I'm not kidding you that when I think about it, my mouth starts watering. It's that good.
- I have friends that any girl would be jealous to have. They truly get me. Almost nothing can compare to a girlfriend who can finish your sentence or thinks the same thing you do at the same time. In my mind, having one friend "get" you is much more important than having 10 friends "like" you. Quality over quantity, people. Find yourselves some good peeps.
- My family rocks my socks off. We've reached the point where my parents are still my parents, but they are now cool and hip and fun to be around. They provide advice but let us make decisions on our own. They understand that we are adults and are out in the wide world (but that doesn't mean my mom's not going to worry all the time or pray rosaries when we go on road trips).
"We are God of stories, but please tell me
What is there to complain about?
When you're happy like a fool, let it take you over
When everything is out, you gotta take it in."











